It is the eve of the end of the New year, New You contest and I’m on pins and needles waiting to find out who the winner is.
Since I’ve started on this journey I have received nothing but support from my friends, family and even people I have never met before. For that I say THANK YOU!! The support has shown me that I CAN do this whether I win or lose, it has shown me how many people out there in the interwebs are reading my blog, reading my tweets and watching my instagram feed, and it has shown me that I have a lot of folks holding me accountable!
I have had a few people message me saying things like “You are NOT overweight!” and “You don’t need to lose any weight!” or “You’re not chubby!” and while I greatly appreciate those comments, and I know they are coming from kind people, with only the best intentions….. I AM overweight, I DO need to lose weight…and maybe you’re right, maybe I’m not “chubby” maybe I’m “fat.” I know these things about me. I know that I am not in the best shape I could be in. I know that I am 55 pounds heavier than I was just a few short years ago. I know that I weigh more NOW than I did when I was pregnant with Avery. I know that I am not happy at this weight.
This is about me. I never place any judgment on anyone else. I don’t look at people and think about how much more (or less) they weigh than me. I don’t think of what size clothing they wear. I just think how I don’t like the numbers on the tag of my jeans. I don’t like that I need to wear spanx every.single.day. I don’t like that I only feel comfortable in baggy, oversized clothes. I don’t like how I feel when I climb the stairs or chase my daughter around. I don’t like it and I’m ready to change it. This is about ME and about my family.
Right now I weigh 180lbs, I am 5’5″ tall and wear XL shirts and 16-17 jeans. There. I said it. I put it out there and there is no going back (well, I COULD edit this out if I wanted, but I don’t want to!)If I win (and probably even if I don’t) I will be posting photos and updates of my weight loss, my size changes, all that stuff.
I would LOVE to be somewhere around 140lbs and maybe wear medium shirts and size 10 or 12 jeans. My goals are reasonable and they are attainable.
I want people to hold me accountable. As much as I want everyone to cheer me on, I want people to yell at me if I start slipping. I need you guys!